“ I am Nr. 3! I call it the spirit of madness and it has now been in my family for generations. I am now going through things I remember from my childhood. But back then it wasn’t me.” – Gideon Mifetu (23 years)
I believe there are things passed on from generation to generation. These can be traditions, behavioral traits, blessings, promises and curses. Mine was the latter. I am Nr. 3! I call it the spirit of madness and it has now been in my family for generations. I am now going through things I remember from my childhood. But back then it wasn’t me. That spirit was upon my grandfather -but he couldn’t fight it. It got him wandering around and at times he would be going to the seaside and randomly push boats into the sea.
It as well came upon my father. That changed a lot in the place I called home. Back in 2006 it started. And due to that he left my mother and me. I guess he couldn’t fight it either. Now it’s my turn. I won’t let it beat me as they did. I am fighting it. Praying against it. As for now I am ok.
May, 11th in 2017 I first noticed a change. I knew it was my turn. I told a friend of mine I knew from school -William. I shouldn’t have done that because he started to behave abnormally towards me. He started calling me a mad person. But I am not a mad person. It seems as if these words are following me because that is who my family claims me to be as well. I don’t get their support. Neither morally, spiritually, financially or academically. Left to myself.
But I have to admit I know something has changed about me. I stopped going to school. For the past months I’ve been moving from one place to another – just roaming. Not really doing anything but rather trying to make them hear and see me. People are running away from me because they say I am mad. At times I find myself attacking people on the street. I would just hit them. And if I’m not doing that I am bathing. At times 3 times a day. I can’t help it!
I am one of eight testimonials sharing my story. At times we fight battles others couldn’t finish. I pray that my story will be the one of an overcomer. Too young to give in…
My name is Gideon Mifetu – thank you for listening to my story!
Gideon Mifetu was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2017. Within the collection we reflect the stories of eight individuals who have been diagnosed with mental disorders and share their experiences of stigmatisation and rejection. The collection is dedicated to them.
A collaboration with On The Move e.V. A charity that furthers brain awareness activities all over the world and opened the first holistic Center for Mental Health, including vocational skills training and rehabilitation programs, in Ghana. Gideon participated in several therapy sessions and he is currently enrolled in a Senior High School.
Proceeds of our collections are furthered into a fund to support their vocational training.