“At night I couldn’t sleep. Caught up in thoughts. This condition did not just affect my nightly routines but as well interfered with my day to day activities. I had to stop working. No income. More worries.” – Celestine Gadagbui (23 years)
With no one to really go through this journey with all I wish for is to be free (again). Around one and a half years ago I told my friend that I was going through something and I needed help. She listened to what I said but never offered me her support. I was left alone. Her behavior towards me changed and she even told me to go away calling me “mad”. I felt I was left all by myself.
At night I couldn’t sleep. Caught up in thoughts. This condition did not just affect my nightly routines but as well interfered with my day to day activities. I had to stop working. No income. More worries. And these worries got me thinking so bad that made my condition even become worse. All I want is to escape this nightmare. With this construction of thoughts and worries that rise up to cloud my reality.
The diagnosis I got on the 11th Feb 2016 was depression. A mental disorder, characterized by sadness, loss of interest or pleasure, feelings of guilt or low self-worth, disturbed sleep or appetite, feelings of tiredness and poor concentration. * So that was me now? Celestine Gadagbui from Aveyiborme being depressed? I refuse. And I am fighting to get back an ordinary life. I started working again, I take my medication and I hope that one day I will no longer be called nor remembered as the mad girl that is not even regarded as a human being. But Celestine the one that fought herself back to life.
I am one of eight testimonials sharing my story. In life we have two options. We give up ourselves when life throws stones at us and become victims of our situations or we choose to be victors. I know that sickness doesn’t just come. So when I share my story, maybe someone may also be going through the same problem with which my story may be of help or can save him or her.
My name is Celestine Gadagbui – thank you for listening to my story!
Celestine Gadagbui was diagnosed with depression in 2016. Within the collection we reflect the stories of eight individuals who have been diagnosed with mental disorders and share their experiences of stigmatisation and rejection. The collection is dedicated to them.
A collaboration with On The Move e.V. A charity that furthers brain awareness activities all over the world and opened the first holistic Center for Mental Health, including vocational skills training and rehabilitation programs, in Ghana. Celestine started her rehabilitation process with repairs and sales of bicycles at a project called “Brains Cycles” for one year. In 2018, she was enrolled into a seven-months vocational rehabilitation in tailoring at “Home of Brains”. She is currently placed with a local trainer to fully undergo a two years apprenticeship in her own community.
Proceeds of our collections are furthered into a fund to support their vocational training.